On Healing
It’s not like the movies. There isn’t a climactic “Ah-ha” moment where everybody cheers. The scene doesn’t fade to black and reappear with the credits rolling over an upbeat soundtrack and a compilation of all the main characters singing and dancing.
Healing is slow.
Emotions are powerful.
Comparison is mighty.
Sometimes they win a battle or two. I’ve learned the virtue in tactical retreat. I’ve learned to trust that sometimes you have to take two steps backward and regroup.
I’ve also learned the terrain is slippery. Just when you think you’ve conquered one small hill, you find yourself lying on your back at the bottom looking up at the sky wondering what the hell just happened.
Just accepting that makes the process easier. The important part is getting back up, wiping your brow, spitting some blood and starting back up the slope again a little wiser, a little tougher, a little more healed.
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I couldn't agree more with this – comparison has been so hard for me. Once we think we've conquered one thing, another thing rears its ugly head.
Beautiful piece! Healing is a *relative* concept. Do we ever "heal," or just keep plowing ahead because it is what we must do for the future of our children? Getting knocked down definitely has its good points! I agree – we at least get to catch our breath. 😉
This post is many things all at the same time … sobering, enlightening, affirming, & motivating. Your description of what it feels like to hit the autism wall and wonder “WTH … I thought I was good with this?!?!” … is so, so accurate. You hit it on the head. I, and I’m sure others, experience this over and over again. I happen to be smack dab in the middle of my own smackdown. in a way it’s okay, because I know that these moments are always followed by a period of that “I got this” mentality … which is nice. Thank you for revealing the raw-ness of your “normal”. It sure helps all of us!
Thoughts on healing , thats huge:) but in short I can say through it all the ups the downs the tears the wondering , the fear through all of the healing we grow. I can only assume that is the entire purpose to make us better people with more love more compassion more understanding and the final ah ha moment that takes practice when turmoil hits again through all this healing that moment when we see its not about the turmoil or the pain we feel but rather how we handle ourselves … calmly sturdy knowing there is a reason bigger than we can possibly understand for what is happening and instead of the need to run and scream and find someones shoulder to cry on we say , OK, Ive got this ,I have faith that it will all work out even if I don’t understand ,I have faith and can handle this… calmly:) I’m not saying its easy, by far , I’m not saying you will do it right away , nope , practice practice and more practice but i think Im finally getting a grip … maybe:) Great blog , touched my heart!