Wish He Could Tell Me Why

Every morning for several weeks now the first thing Eric says when he comes downstairs is “No school?”

In one way it kind of makes me happy – since I think every teenager feels that way when they wake up.

In another way, it makes me sad and worried. Why doesn’t he want to go all of a sudden?

It reminds me of the 2nd day of kindergarten with our daughter. She did NOT want to go back to school since it was so different than pre-school. There was a lot more work to do and a lot less time to play with her friends. I remember her sobbing on the playground waiting to go into the school that morning. The principal ended up having to hold her hand and walk her into her classroom since she didn’t want to go.

And the second she walked away, the tears started streaming down my face since I was sad that I couldn’t make her feel better and I was the “mean” mommy that was making her go to school.

In talking with his teacher yesterday she made a great point in saying that more work demands are being put on him with maybe less time for breaks and moving around and that could be hard for him to adjust to. This is considered Freshman year of high school for him, after all…..it’s all part of growing up, right?.

And fast forward about 12 years, and here I am again. The “mean” mommy who is gonna make my son get on the school bus even though I know he doesn’t want to go.

The big difference is my daughter could tell me why she didn’t want to go…..unfortunately my son can’t.

So with tears streaming down my face once again, I will continue to pray that things settle down, that he will enjoy his days at school, and that someday he will be able to tell me the “why” behind all of his behaviors.