“I cried”

“I cried”
I cried when you were diagnosed I cried because I thought I did something to cause it I cried because I wondered if I would ever hear your voice I cried because I wanted you to live the childhood I imagined for you I cried because I wanted you to have a typical relationship with ...

Never Miss a Moment

Recently I took Eric to a local indoor water park for a few hours.  He loved it.  I had a few very interesting social observations. One of the most obvious was how we, the parents of special needs kids, never miss a moment in our kids lives.   We are ever present, hyper vigilant, (over bearing ...

Growth

Yes, you should be expected to put the needs of your children first. Yes, you should be expected to sacrifice greatly for their happiness. No, this does not mean you should be expected to feel guilty about, or bury your valid, honest emotions. No, you are not a bad parent for taking time to process ...

Status Report

Here is where I am on this journey: Would I take away his anxiety?  Yes.Would I heal his gut issues that give him pain and discomfort?  Yes.Would I give anything to have a full and “typical” conversation with my son?  Anything.Would I silence the quirky noises that draw stares from the uneducated?  Maybe.Would I take ...

“Relax”

He gets a little excited.  We pulled into the parking lot of Walmart for our semi-weekly excursion to buy a new Cars toy for being a good boy at school.  I barely put the car in Park before he threw open the rear door. Finesse is not one of his strong suits.  The car door ...

Rigged

-Discipline your child– you’re a bully. -Let him cry– you’re disconnected and insensitive. -Comfort him– you’re spoiling him. -Negotiate with him– you’re giving in. -Stay home– you’re not trying. -Bring them out– you’re disrupting others’ good time. -Ask for concessions– you’re milking the disability for special treatment. -Ask for help– you’re weak. -Do it yourself– ...

You Want Answers?

You want answers?You want answers?You can’t handle the truth! Son, we live in a world that has ignorance and that ignorance has to defeated by people with guts.  Who’s gonna do it?  You?  You, Autism Speaks? We have a greater responsibility than you could possibly fathom.  You weep for privacy and you wonder why we ...

“Caught”

Dear nice mom, You caught me.   I wasn’t staring, but my eyes lingered on your son a little too long and you noticed.  We were in the Dollar Store.  He was fascinated with the bin full of basketballs and he was in his glory bouncing them rhythmically and laughing.  Our eyes met briefly.  I know ...